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Well life is not working the way I planned it, and yeah I know that life always has its twist and turns but life right now just sucks. Thats the best way I can put it. I lost my backbone, job and I am going to lose my home(family safehouse). The reason I call it a safehouse is because it was my grandmothers' home. Not only was she my nanny(what the grandchildren called her) but she was my backbone and a home for family when life sallowed you up and spite u out...lol. Losing her meant so much on so many levels. Not only did it give wake up calls it gave no more escape goat when things went sour. It took me awhile to get myself half way together and I owe that to my nanny but now that she is gone im facing issues Ive never had to face before and Im more lost, confused, pissed and aggravated with myself then Ive ever been. I say this because a year and a half ago I moved in with my nanny, she had been sick for awhile. I was there to help her but also get my stuff together. I end up taken her position it was a good job paid nice, but walking in ther door there was issues on were the business was going. I find out about a meeting just so happen because the office manager never keeps things in order before I was suppose and a week later was approached about it by one of the doctors. I understood exactly what was going on and understood why they decided why to just have the office manager handle the job. it was a mutual agreement...which I found out the hard way is the wrong thing to put on your unemployment claim... HA just my luck...so the first week of March I was no longer needed at the end of the month. Well I had a month and two weeks and I thought thing would work out. I started with faith, but no luck with the job hunt but I knew I still had some income for now and savings... And then...My nanny passes....and things got a little bit blurry. Not only did I lose a huge part of my heart and soul....I got the biggest wake up call... I am now unemployed, my car will be shut off in about 24 hours, I have no money and I dont know how long I have left in my home....I have faith though that things will work out though, what else do you have when you can only control so much around you. Im in school, one thing I can control in my life since its online, library never turns anyone away if my wireless connect doesnt work. I try not to let this get me down but honestly sometimes it breaks my heart that Im jobless, broke, and damn near homeless. I know I could be in a worst situation but this feels like my worst and isnt that at times all that matters?????
Love and hugs.
Love and hugs
love you too.
in response to Starshine... Hello, Yes with alot of patience and alot of prayers and Faith things are going very well. It is getting better alot better. It helps alot when I don't worry and got rid of all that. One day at a time. I had a blast at work today. The machine broke down and we had to do a little crop work in greenhouse until they got the machine running again well we have these buggies with wheels on in the rose so we could reach top of wires. Anyway I got mine going and wanted to move a little bit further and that thing went so fast LoL thought was going to fly off that. Everybody laughed at me they said if only they had a video on my face reaction. Boy did that thing go in wrong direction and I wound up right where I started from. It doesn't have brakes. You control it by pulling yourself on the wires. Of course I couldn't grab the plants for then they would of flown down.
I hear you when you want to do laundry and have to wait. I remember when was living in apartment I wanted to do mine but lady from upstairs was doing hers. That was a while back now though. My dryer is 25 years old now and still working pretty good. Although when my son was still living here he turned it the wrong way and broke the dial on it so I have to guess where the setting is at. I figured it out ok though.
My son goes back to work on Monday. Strike is over lasted for 3 weeks and they struck deal with owner of company and got most things they wanted so that worked out for them. Instead of them getting only four year contract they got for five now with 50 cent raises per year and still have their benefits so they are happy.
I wonder what will happen pretty soon cause in a couple of weeks we have an election coming up. Right now we have the conservatives in I wonder who will be in next. I know I don't want a minority government.
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I know my bread is about 4-5 bucks a loaf . Go back to drinking milk. Late start again. That is a lot for gas and what we pay and it w ill go up too they say to 12 a gallon.
Off subject going to do laundry and only one machine or the two working. And someone had three loads waiting. Man I miss my washing machine and dryer that got left behind and junked.
Hugs and love to you too.
Love and hugs to you