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My family needs help so bad. Almost three years ago I finally got what most women dream about. Happily ever after. In love that is. I married the man of my dreams. He is so so good to me. This is after a life of horrible things happening to me from foster care to rape, to an abusive husband, to near homelessness (several times), to being a widow, and finally to being diagnosed with Lupus, spinal stenosis, and fibromyalia. People tell me all the time how strong I am and how all of the stuff that has happened to me is not my fault. But it's funny most of those people who know my story have never tried to help. My biological father lives a block away from me and has never ever said anything to me.
Five months after we got married I could no longer work because of my illnesses and had to apply for my social security disability. That whole process is awful and financially devastating. It has taken us two years to finally get my disability. During that time my husband worked long long hours to keep a roof over our head. We are still in the middle of deep financial trouble and it is so hard for me I feel so guilty, so very very guilty. In the middle of all this is my beautiful eleven year old step son. I live everyday just to love the two of them. I married my husband so that I could take care of them but they have taken such wonderful care of me. They don't make black men like my husband anymore, hell they don't make men like my husband anymore. When I talk about how guilty I feel because my disability has made our lives so hard. He just reassures me that he loves me and that it will be ok. I fear that it will not be ok and that we will have to pay very dearly very soon for my disability. The system is so unfair. Because my husband works so many hours we are not eligible for any kind of agency help although we are in such need. But anyway, how great is my husband, how blessed am I. I thank god for him everyday.
I have been through so much hurt. I have been abused in so many ways. I thought that I deserved it; I thought that I had some sort of black cloud hanging over my head; I thought that I would always be alone in this world. Well besides my beautiful daughter Amanda. ----She’s the reason I'm still alive (She is in college in Texas). . How can someone like me get help my wonderful husband and my family? I can't work or earn money. My god- mother tells me that I have a story to tell and that one day my story will inspire others but right now all I want is to help feed my family and help my husband get us into a home that is all ours so that we never have to worry about a place to live again. Is there anyone out there listening. Is there any help out there anywhere? Do you care? Can you help? Yes, you . Writing all this down felt amazing for all of about five minutes and than reality woke me up. Help. Please. We don’t need a hand out just a home loan. Sw2233@hotmail.com.
and you know what, thats just great!!! its what a lot of people come here for ...we all need love and acceptance and encouragement it makes us feel that someone cares and that GOD cares HE can use us to help in that way and when we help others HE is blessed and so are we thank you :) may GOD bless you and yours richly
reply tammi--I will keep you in my thoughts tonight as i meditate, just keep positive thoughts going out to the universe at all times, it takes less muscles to smile than to frown (wrinkles you know) I just feel so strongly that your family will be blessed, you have suffered enough, its your turn now to recieve. bless you all sheshe030
Reply to tammi05--I am so sorry you lost your son, believe me you never will completely get over the loss, I too lost my son at age 18 from leukemia and it's been over 20 years--the empty spot he left will never be filled. I'm also sorry to hear of the loss of your father and uncles, it seems like deaths in familys often come in large doses. I don't understand why you are so devastated by your son telling you he was gay, be thankful you have him and that he can live his life in honesty, I would be very proud of him if I were you. I don't think you realize how very blessed you are, you have a son that wants to get an education to better his life and a daughter and a brand new baby coming into your life. I think it's wonderful that your mom will be living with you, you are again blessed to be surrounded by so much love and so many to hug and care for. Did you chose to quit work or did you have to , it might be a good idea to go back to work because you have plenty of help at home. Tammi, you HAVE a mortgage, be thankful you do because so many here on aid page don't even have money for rent or even worse even a home. You can always make room for more especially for family and if everyone can contribute to the monthly expenses maybe you can afford to get a loan and add on to your home. Probably 70% of us here on aidpage would love to have the problems you have, and we would feel blessed to have them. I think you need to take a really hard look at all that you have and be thankful. my best sheshe030
I believe the other argument could show that many people do not trust either political parties, and as a true American, we should think for ourselves and vote what is the best interest for the American citizens whether Republican or Democrat.
I think we are ready for a multiple party systems that already exist in Europe with success. We are facing serious issues that affect our lives and our American dreams. I met many people who do not like either presidential candidates, in which case they would vote for someone who will lead with dignity, grace, and solid social experience.
My definition of social experience here is--actually know and work with the issues that concern the lower 80% of the people living in poverty.
I believe this Aidpage site is a real result of people organizing a silent revolution back to the Great Depression. We all will survive if we all try to be civil with each other and learn.
However, I post my beliefs because I can already spot many questionable posts on this site. I question if some people are trying to take advantage of others in their misery.
I am a student in the art of spotting Bull$&!^ and I hope others on this site will extend the wisdom and courtesy to me and others.
Sorry for the rant, but our neighborhoods depend on solidarity--even if it does extend past our comfort zone. That's how we all grow.
You are so right in what you say. Thank you for getting the message out.
People also need to realize that historically, it is the Democrats that help establish programs to help the needy & the economy.
So people out there:
If the economy is of concern to a person they may want to consider Democrat.
If it is not a concern, then vote accordingly.
Vote. Don't complain later about how things are & how bad the economy is if one does not vote. This is our one chance to make a difference & change things.
This is our chance to change the landscape of our economy.
P.S. I can supply references professional and personal
and I do smoke but i do and am willing to go outside.
I worked as a Ballot judge during yesterday's primary elections, in which case I urge young voters to participate at an equal pace with our senior citizens. Many elderly folks believe that McCain is more in tune with political issues that affect the elderly.
As exhuasting things are today, I believe if America needs a change then we all need to be involved in the political process of voting, community organizing, and research. America has a nine trillion dollar debt the younger generations will have to pay, in which I noticed that only two young voters turned out to vote among 189 elderly voters in the precinct I worked as the election judge.
reply to datruth--well---aren't you a bundle of sunshine and good cheer! You may think what you will of aidpage, but we sure gave you a place to vent your crap---if you don't like it here, don't log-on. I happen to be a success story because of aidpage, I'm getting new dentures thanks to a low cost plan I can afford because of aidpage and I have started a new job that I love thanks to aidpage. I hope no one pays any attention to your comment because if they stick with it help can and is found on aidpage. now go someplace else and spread your venom. sheshe030
i just want to say some people can be so nasty about other people and can really make another person feel like crap because of it. the whole world needs help even the richest person to. we think we have it bad well think of our soldries fighting for our freedom, they are hot and dirty get shot at don't sleep most of the time, cry when they get a chance to do so, and think about keeping us safe. i'm not trying to be rude, i know what it's like to go without myself, it's sometime hard to keep it together, but i don't get bad feelings for others that are just as needy. theses people need help too.